liars by choice

i cannot bite my tongue; you lie though your teeth

i want to tell you things can only get better,

you want to tell me to give my problems to God.

we both know we are liars,

but you know i could never bite my tongue

and you just lie though your teeth.

lying is the only option

that will keep you together and keep me sane.

i cling to your words like they’re prayer:

‘God will not lead you wrong.’

you are so strongly convinced of this

that it makes me believe it is true.

but is there a God? are you lying to yourself,

or are you truly convinced of His existence?

is it true that He will carry everything i cannot?

i will open my heart, let you lie to me.

i will let myself believe it—

you are the only one who could make me believe it.

and yet, when i lie to you,

you close your eyes and miss the point.

i am begging you to lie to yourself,

if only to keep you afloat.

i watch you pace the room, and wonder—

what can i do to make you believe me?

isn’t it cruel how you can make me believe in prayer,

when i cannot even make you believe in yourself?

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thank you for reading! first time I’ve mentioned religion on the internet, kinda nervous, please everyone be nice… anyway, I wasn’t initially inspired by this song, but writing this prompted me to listen to it again, and I forgot how good it was. worth a listen for sure: